Becoming a Cosmic Mystic

I make no claims regarding an exact recipe or steps to becoming a Cosmic Mystic. We are all so unique that no one set of processes or procedures would work for each one of us.

I can, however, tell you how I began becoming a Cosmic Mystic. What a wonderful and wild ride through life!

First, you have to be visited. How do you get visited? In all sorts of ways, probably. Let me explain.Without going into much personal family history and stories about my life, I will describe to you the highlights of how I got to where I am now and why the label, “Cosmic Mystic,” appeals to me. I didn’t know about this possibility earlier in life, and I am certain that I needed to do everything that I did to grow over time into this state of being.

How to be visited is a winding, sometimes turbulent path. And, sometimes not. Some people have spontaneous experiences of the mystical, particularly in childhood. What I mean by the word "mystical" is a direct experience with what may be perceived as divinity of some sort, a spiritual awakening experience. Some people may never assign the words, “spiritual, mystical or sacred” to such an experience, and that’s just fine.

I may have always known at some level that I had not only a personality and a biological body but also some sort of soul or spirit or divine energy that I talked to and listened to but I wasn't conscious about it very often. Having been raised in the Deep South in a religious family did not give me the words that I grew into. I learned about God and Jesus and the Trinity, but very little about Mary or Mary Magdalene because the patriarchal Bible was written and edited by men, not publishing women’s theological stories. That discussion is for another time though I will say that getting to know Mary, Mary Magdalene, and so many other feminine saints, goddesses, and witches has assisted me with my current ideas about the Divine.

Struggling to grow up with so many “shoulds” and training about how I should be acting, much less feeling and thinking, I shaped and molded myself into a pretty good product of my time even though unconsciously codependent, mostly trying to please and help, without knowing why…  I was always someone who was serious and loved to learn although I was also playful, energetic and enthusiastic, while at times I was told to calm down or squash some of my animation. I worked hard for approval and attention (ie. love) and got it some of the time. 

This type of growing up worked pretty well for me, and I had some good defenses and coping skills that helped me deal with (or not deal with) struggles and distress. Except that I didn’t really know how to get along in a primary intimate relationship very well until what I call my late adolescence (mid-30's) when everyone else seemed to be getting married much earlier. I had had several so-called “intimate” relationships with partners throughout the years but it took me a long while to run into a partner who fit well enough for me. Having a child also helped me learn so much about attachment and detachment, intimacy, pain, suffering, and joy.

Not one who suffered a lot of complex trauma, I identified over time with the idea of neglect even though I had pretty wonderful parents who were usually doing the best they could with our family situation. I was lucky and blessed to be born into this family that nested me and supported me in becoming a successful, mostly good person. Always had shadows though, as do we all.

Only when a few tragedies and major losses began to occur did I get propelled as an older adult into the spiritual, the mystical, and the quantum field of not just this three dimensional reality but into so many other dimensions, times and spaces. The pandemic helped with that, too. I decided to slow down my life a bit, take some time away from working since I could retire, and begin to listen better and see more clearly, sometimes stunned at and amazed by what I heard and saw, validating many of my beliefs and values. Like, we are all part of a whole, connected to each other, and what happens to one happens to us all, metaphorically and figuratively speaking. Sometimes, physically, too.

My life included being a psychotherapist for over 30 years, working with people in distress, participating in all sorts of psychotherapy practices and alternative therapies as a client myself, setting up a context for a gentle and gradual explosion of awakening, becoming more aware about enlightenment and about so many realms and realities around us and inside us all of the time.

I did not see any UFO or UAP’s, nor did I get abducted, I did not join a cult with a magnificent guru, but I did participate quite frequently with groups of women (and some men) in person and online, people who became my tribe, who were also experiencing human life and Spirit in deeply personal, intimate ways. Direct experience with the Divine may happen at any point, I suppose. All I know is that in my life, it took almost 70 years and slowing down enough to find the time and space to journey within and outside of myself at a very vulnerable, intimate and lovely level. The sacramental use of plants and molecules also helped me to explore.

I began having visitations by what I call spirit beings, goddesses, elemental energies, trees, and animals while developing and deepening my connection with Mother Nature, Mother Earth, and so many other mystics and spiritual masters. One important book was The Sophia Code, whose author had channeled this book, and developed a wide-ranging set of programs and communities: Kaia Ra. Another mystic and teacher has been Rebecca Campbell whose international fame comes from her working with people and sharing herself and her mystical skills in a  commercially public manner over time.

Then, as I began joining communities of women on retreats on a beautiful beach mostly facilitated by Tammy Roth, PhD, my quest, curiosity and enjoyment of life developed further, turning me onto the quantum world through family constellations and astrology, guided mediations, and so much more. Richard Rudd and his book, The Gene Keys, and many of his programs also assisted me in my growth. Many other mentors, trainers, facilitators and friends have also supported this transformation into a more grounded, centered human being than ever before, and more connected with the Divine.

A year or so ago, I found a spiritual counselor which I never had been open to in past years. She contributed a great deal to my recognizing my core wounds, how to feel them and think about them - and how to shed some of my many skins, “defenses,” coping skills and barriers to opening up, to release and surrender even more of my long term conditioned patterns that helped me survive so “successfully” in the past. Once I could release some of these beliefs and parts of myself that no longer served me (or which weren’t mine to begin with), I could burrow down into myself and into Spirit. The visitations became more frequent.

I also began, after several years of using a Chinese medicine doctor who helped to open up my chi through meridians and such while helping my body heal, to find and use an Energy Healer, who is amazing. Energy is what we are, what the world is, what the universe and the cosmos is. Getting to notice, know, and play with energy is part of being human and getting healthier. 

The day after one of my recent energy healing sessions I practiced a deep meditative method I sometimes use, and toward the end of that experience, I heard a voice, naming herself with one syllable that I couldn’t quite understand for a week. Turns out that when I was 1 - 2 yrs old, my mother hired a woman for only a couple of hours per week to help her with ironing. That was in the early 1950’s when many women tended to do everything for their families, including cooking, cleaning, loving, managing and handling everything about the house while supporting her husband and his career. When this woman came to iron, my maternal grandmother and mother laughingly told me, that I would chatter and babble to her, and she would say one of these syllables I heard after my meditation, as feedback to me as if she was truly listening and interpreting this young child’s pseudo-words. I think I remember the story partly because this must have been a wonderful resource for me at the time when my mother was so busy (as she always was) taking care of 3 kids, one of whom had heart issues. This woman who sat ironing listened to me, or seemed to, and murmured reassuring words of interest and fascination in what I was saying. What a delight for a young child starved for attention and nurturance!

My experience is that this voice came to me as a Spirit Being illustrating how she and other spirit beings have been there all along, even in human forms. When seemingly small things happen to each of us in our lifetimes, they can help change our lives, and we might call them spirit beings. They have helped steer us toward growth, guide us even when we are unconscious about their participation (and we usually are), when we are at a crossroads, or just when living our regular lives as human beings.

So then, why add the "Cosmic" to this "Mystic" word? Because I believe that we have eternal souls and that we may live many lifetimes. That we are all here to learn about human life and to support each other and ourselves, to become better and more healthy human beings.  And, that in our growth toward that better health, physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually, we are also here to share with others who on their own paths.  And, perhaps help them as well.

That in community, we can learn to be our best selves, assisting humanity in transitioning out of old, long term patriarchal patterns to a better system where the Divine Feminine and the Divine Masculine (and every other gender as well) are all parts of our systems of being born, living, growing, healing, and dying as physical bodies. Living within a stream of soul consciousness, inspiring us and supporting us cosmically, spiritually and for the benefit of all beings. That there is a Collective Consciousness that we often dip into and hopefully share.

Perhaps you have experienced visitations, too? Maybe you have had a conversation with a cat or a star, a flower or a tree, or an experience of deep connection or just feeling ecstatic without knowing why, resonating in deep understanding, listening to and seeing the symbolic and spiritual as a foreground and focal point in our lives.

However you learn and grow from such visitations, I hope that you will develop and deepen your own ways of listening to and/or worshipping whatever Divine beings you know and are open to knowing. Our lives change when this happens, becoming easier, so much less stressful, more peaceful and soothing - allowing us to be and act more loving and compassionate with all beings. Once we know this, life goes forward, and transformation, rebirth, and ecstasy are available more of the time. I invite you to witness and explore your own cosmic mysticism.